mel oh d

I find myself saying "I want to go home" but ooooohh riiight.. I am home

did it even happen?? i cant recall a thaaang

I dressed up as an indian today, with bruised eyes and blood all over. Thankful for what? Raping woman and small pox. I'm thankful that the amount of times I've given you a taste of your own poison, thrown you in your grave, and allllllllll the hell that comes with you...
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.remercier quelque chose, mais pas de façon pleinement, que je peux vous jeter àt, et vous revenez sans même me connaître, et je me réveille avec vous dans mes bras

are fire and fire,
grab the hose, its alllll burning dowwnnn

"i treat you like when I was moving bricks, thats serious.
baby im serious."
late night, playing in the dark
waking up in side my arms

remember???
slamming the door on another's face
never felt so full filling
a well deserved slam you mustn't deny
either youre in or youre out ....
and no wants to stick around n wait for you to
figure.your.shit.out.
no one lost anything so suck it up
I still have all my wits and this is not the time to pull "u card"

heavily medicated.
.......
always chasing that buzz
that rush
that good feeling
just keep on keeping on
cuz it ain't gonna come
not like it did..

so here we are now, oddly we're where we were then.
chasing that buzz and it just ain't commin'
that magic fades and now its just dull...
a dull uncomfortably toooo comfortable state of being...
....

life is soooooo life-like

justin went back to vermont
chelsea went to seattle
wendy is going going
back
back
to San diego.

maybe im on the chopping block next.. eh?

its 555. drop acid.

for the feeding of a fiend
a living is a living n its all you to choose it
you may fiend the greed and in turn greed the fiend
your living becomes their living
their existence is your persistence
a living is a living but your greed made you lose it

rest in paradise homie

now you can call me the Sundance Kid
the free emotion was our teenage dream
But we are only instinct, only anmials
and everything are lies

you say it out loud and its a jinx, so I'm watching what I say and I'm stoppping.. .. ..

its just too much at once.

the joy of the ride of life
or maybe just the joy rides......
you just have to know at any moment, that could be it
and you have to be okay with it.

you have to be okay with it.
life is so life-like right now to so many people in all types of situations. its been like this since before we can even know and its just becoming more and more clear. get out while you can and do it big. no ones waiting nothings stopping.

hey mister man in the moon, lets get a smile on ya shit's starting to head your way

the plans you knew would fall threw
that you try so hard to make happen

one person can only make so much effort..
someone needs to meet you half way
well what's up mel you're doin' in alone again
nothing new just new circumstances

trying to make a home but you need that heart
and the heart is gone and it 'aint comin' back
so no home in the looking just a bed to sleep in please

its all on you mel. fuck

the moon last night was the most incredible sight. the ocean so still you'd swear it a lake. so awkwardly quiet you'd swear something was wrong. the reflection... a serpent you'd envy,,the most beautiful serpent no siren could battle. you could reach the moon if only you'd try....so here we go, we're trying. you lose to gain. Well..you gain when you lose so lose everything...everything important that is.

Unconscious versus belligerent and thats the only options you're given

lets find the driveway to the house of no worries...we can see them all ways but yet to meet. ask them what it feel likes to live in those big rooms...
those big rooms...you know,the ones with the hIGH CEILINGS,,
let them know to lose the torch because the ocean won't save them
they're conscious-less like you and,,,


dead is dead.
...and those fucking high ceilings

now how does that make you feel?

uneasy.. ..

I'll move these rocks for You my love

I will tear them up out of the Earth

and I will bend my spine 'til it's quitting time

'cause I know what your time is worth

always will. whenever I need you, there you are. and vice versa ...allll ways..

and I think I'm understanding that the only human being that will ever make my sincerely content..is You. We forget the World together, connect on a level that no other will ever reach. but my sincerity might as well be selfishness shooting out a cow's ass

five years later, yet we recollect no time

"you are here" feels more like a slap in the face

why do I mention the solar system?
cause you're in my soul and system